Y’all, I love my house. I love falling asleep to the scent of lavender and eucalyptus in my diffuser and the sound of a storm from the noise machine app on my phone. I love getting out of bed in the morning and doing yoga on my blue yoga mat that I bought from Target. I love listening to worship music as I prepare myself for the day, fix my coffee and make my lunch. I love sitting in my little den spending time in communion with the Lord and letting all else fall away. I love coming home on a random Monday night and watching tv with my roommates. Ok, I guess this goes deeper than me loving my house. I love my house and even more-so, I love the habits I’ve created there.
I began to think about all of this a few weeks ago when I house sat for some close friends. It didn’t happen all at once, but after my 10 days in their home, I realized how anxious I felt not being in the comfort of my own home. The thirty minute drive that separated their house from mine felt like a world away. I felt like I was in foreign territory, with no roadmap. No falling asleep to my sweet essential oils. No Monday night couch sessions with my roommates. It felt terribly wrong.
As I type all of this, the irony is not at all lost on me. You see, the last day I spent at their house was not an ordinary day. It was a day in which I went to an important meeting. A meeting entered into my iPhone calendar simply as “Kenya Meeting”.
If you don’t already know, in just 4 months I will be on a plane headed 7,900 miles from home to Kenya. I will spend 9 days there serving and working alongside a local church. And if my house sitting experience affirmed anything at all, it is that I am a true creature of habit. I thrive when I know my surroundings in and out, when I feel like I have total control and when I feel like I can anticipate what is coming next.
I don’t think that is what God has for me in Kenya. And honestly, that terrifies me. I don’t know what I’m stepping into, I don’t know how I will be received, I don’t know if I will meet my fundraising goal. I think this is right where God wants me to be. In a place of total uncertainty, that leads me to fully depend in and trust Him.
As always, I am in need of your prayers; specifically that I will lean into the unknown and shake off the fear I have, trusting that God knows what he wants for me in Kenya and that he has a purpose for me as I prepare for this trip.
Of course, if you are willing and able to support me financially I would greatly appreciate that as well. My personal goal is to have all funds raised by July 1, both through support raising and personal saving. If you are able and willing to support me, a check may be made out to Grace Church and sent to 2801 Pelham Rd, Greenville, SC 29615. Please be sure to include my name in the memo line. You may also give online using the following link: https://gracechurchsc.securegive.com/SG/WebOnline/Home/Index?WO=gracechurchsc#. Once on the site, you may click the option to give without an account. Next, you will choose “Missions” from the drop-down box. Finally, you will enter the monetary amount in the box denoting Mission: OVC Kenya, and enter my name in the box titled “‘Giving Memo”.
There may be a lot of things I don’t know as I prepare to go to Kenya, but there are a few that I do know:
- I probably won’t be taking my diffuser
- Or my yoga mat
- God is with me every step of the way